Sunday Best

I can't remember the last time I titled a blog post with Sunday Best. It makes me nostalgic for my early days of blogging, when this was a very personal diary with not many people reading it, google reader was the way to catch up on blog posts, and blog comments were much more of a regular thing (I mean leaving them as well as receiving them) Blogging has changed so much over the years and in all honestly I've found it really hard to keep up. I love the people I've met and the friends I've made. I love working with some of my favourite brands - and I promise you that I wouldn't do it if I felt like it compromised the heart and soul of this blog. I could never not be true to myself or you guys either. My blog has always been quite a slow burner, and I've come to accept that it will probably continue to be that way. I write what I want and when I can, but I still feel the pressure and comparisons creeping into my brain (of other blogs that started out around the same time as me, but are now massive!) They say you get out what you put in, and I guess that is true. I just feel like there aren't enough hours in the day to do all the things I want to do, with regular blogging being one of them. My full time job is so hectic that I am considering a change in career once this 5 month TV job is finished. It's just not giving me the routine or lifestyle that I want anymore, which saddens me because I love the core of what I do, but I feel like my life and personal priorities have changed and my job makes me compromise almost every aspect of my life.

I don't quite know what I am trying to say, or if any of that makes sense. I feel like my thoughts right now would take a proper essay in order for me to fully communicate them. I turn 26 next month and something has changed in me, and my priorities are slowly changing (quarter life crisis, alarm bells ringing?!) I'm not the person I was last year, or even 5 years ago when I made a lot of life/career/etc decisions which have brought me to where I am right now. I am the happiest and the most 'me' I have ever felt, so maybe that's why I am itching and craving for change. I know what I like, and I sure as hell know what I don't like. It all seems to be career orientated, so that's where I need to have the biggest brainstorming session once I finish this job. My anxiety also seems to drive a lot of the thoughts and ideas that I have, and I am working carefully to suss out when it's my anxiety talking, and what my inner voice REALLY wants and needs. Some days I will completely pick my life apart and analyze absolutely everything, and then other days I literally just think 'fuck it' - everyone is making it up as they go along at some point eh.

Recently I have been focusing on the mantra 'Not every day is good, but there's something good in every day' - and it works really well when I am feeling deflated, defeated, or generally a bit down in the dumps. You should try it, some days it has helped me stop the very reddest of mists from descending! Here are some things I am grateful for recently:

This guy

Probably best to get the mushy stuff out of the way first. At the end of last year I met Pete, and now I genuinely can't imagine my life without him in it. He is my best friend and my soul mate (the closest phrase I can use to describe/understand how much he means to me) and although us moving in together might seem a bit fast from the outside, we both know what we want - so why the hell should we wait. Pete keeps me sane on a daily basis, and by sane I guess I mean he embraces my crazy and the rawest form of 'me' - which makes me feel not so crazy after all. Plus we laugh, a lot. I couldn't tolerate life without laughter. Whether he is laughing with me, or at me... it makes me so happy that my little heart could burst.

Fresh flowers

A simple thing like having beautiful fresh flowers around the house does absolute wonders for my mood. I separated these beautiful spring flowers from Appleyard London into two smaller bouquets, one for the kitchen and another for the bathroom, as the original bouquet was absolutely huge and I couldn't fit it all in the one vase I own. I really need to invest in more unusual vases like I am seeing all you trendy folks doing recently (milk jugs, watering cans etc!) I've used Appleyard before for their next day flowers as a bit of a pick me up. I used to love lillies but they are poisonous for cats, so in recent years I've been exploring other options and trying to find a favourite. Dexter doesn't bother with them at all but Binx is quite inquisitive, and I'm hoping once he's not a kitten he will grow out of it. Pretty much every plant in my house has a few sneaky teeth marks on it. If you're looking to treat yourself, you can get 40% off with the code BLOG40 (unfortunately this doesn't include the flowers by post range)

Baths

You'll probably know that the one thing I was most excited about in my new flat was having a bath. I loved my massive shower room in the old house, but it's just not the same as coming home after a long days work, lighting a few candles, putting some music on and soaking in the tub. I've been abandoning the mega bubbles recently and using this Lavender and Black Pepper mineral soak from Arran Aromatics. Lavender makes me rather sleepy, so it's perfect for just before bed time. It smells amazing, and is ridiculously relaxing. A little goes a long way too! When it comes to a bath, I need to make sure I have locked the door properly otherwise two little furry felines like to come in and keep me company. I don't mind so much (apart from their big staring eyes being the tiniest bit creepy!) But more and more now they seem to be tightrope walking along the side of the tub, and I am just waiting for the day when one of them misplaces a paw and falls in. Then it won't be such a relaxing bath time as I'd have normally hoped haha.

My talented Mum

Apart from being my rock, inspiration and generally the most fantastic person I have ever known - my Mum is also the queen of hair! She manages to fit me in between teaching and busy days session styling on shoots, to work my hair from awful dark brown to this. I am heading in a more copper direction, and it's taking a bit of time considering my hair history in the past year (sorry Mum) but we are definitely getting there. My time hop right now is full of blue haired pictures, and as much as I miss it I'm glad to be moving onto something else and for my hair to still be in a decent condition. If you ever have any hair or colour related questions be sure to have a chat with my Mum on twitter (@kmdK3D ) She's also a serious foodie, so don't go over for a look at photos and such if you are hungry in the slightest.

Weekends off

As crazy as work gets, I am so grateful to have a day off at the weekend (which will soon turn back into two) The first things I want to do are normally eat and sleep, and not leave the house for the entire day. But once I do drag myself out I'm always relieved (not initially, mind you) I feel so bad at the moment that I haven't been able to properly see my family and friends, but luckily they are all really understanding of my antisocial work schedule, and know I'll be back on the radar in a couple of months time. Hopefully just in time for summer, and the good weather, and lots of adventures. Plus a holiday to the Algarve in August! Which can't bloody come quick enough. The photo above was at an engagement party back home a couple of weekends ago. Despite feeling tired I donned my fake tan, lashes and new dress from Spartoo and hit the town. After the party me and Pete walked round to my Mums for a gin, phoned a taxi into Glasgow and ended up dancing around the ABC until the very last song of the night, just the two of us. I'm quite bad for letting myself mope around in my pj's when I'm in the mood for being a hermit, but sometimes it's good to push yourself out of your comfort zone, because once you get there you will end up having fun and be glad that you did.

Home
 

Despite how anxious, or lost, or needy, or uncertain I feel about life, I always come back around to the fact that I have a home, Glasgow, and I love it here. The fear of the unknown is always washed away knowing that I have a warm and safe place to lay my head, with my boyfriend under the same roof, and that most of my family and friends are no more than a 20 minute drive from where I stand. My dreams for the future will always feel within reach, knowing that I have this strong support system around me, and also by the fact that my own heart and head grow stronger every day.

Have a wonderful Sunday no matter where you are or who you're with. And however you feel right now, know that you are never alone ♥